the weight

For Annie
(in Christchurch)

When the days darken

And you think life grows short
and all seems to hard too carry.

Just breathe.

In.

Out.

It's the simple things that count.

Let go of worry and fear as they are

the distracters.

Not the love that already was.

And the light that still shines in you.

Carry not other's burdens

As this way you darken yourself needlessly.

Because you are not alone and neither are they

and help is always there when you want it.
Even if they are un-well. 
Even when things lie broken at your feet.

Picture yourself in a good place

As well as your others.

You will build it all

when you can see it again.
And you can carry yourself - always.

Gently breathe.

In.

Out.

eyeopener

You are the sun that shines your own self

upon this earth.

Whether you shine or whether you darken that light is your choice alone

Do not blame others for keeping their light as you deflect what is theirs.

they are their own minds

they are their own hearts

They can not make you feel better if you

do not wish this for yourself.

Standing alone is not being weak - It's embracing that which you are yourself.

It's tying your own shoe laces

It's practicing your own stride.

You can strut your stuff,

But do it for you

Don't expect a serenade from others.

As you will find

you do not need it

You have your own light

you hold your own heart

and that's where you will find joy again.

See differently

and you will understand

You have had all you needed already

all along. 

Be at peace. Others then will be at peace with you.

finding it?

A lot of people are "looking", so how about "finding"?


Many of us get excited about the idea of looking for "something". Either a new training in spirituality will do the trick, reading this amazing book should have the answers, or buying the new car or securing the new job that will bring it all home. Maybe that or we go on a happy quest to introduce inspiring people in our lives to make us feel better. Whatever distraction works to avoid looking at ourselves. It's easier to focus on "out there".


Perhaps we will get satisfaction or we don't. Then when we do think we might finally get the answer, ironically we discover after a while that our new solution, friend, or newly purchased item wasn't quite what we wanted to have after all. We got the money but not the freedom. We get a sense of direction again from our guru but they don't want to hold our hands. We get the new car but have to pay more money for road user charges and insurance. We get the new friend but keep wanting to find others as to keep ourselves feeling excited and distracted. The new job provides us with more income and experience, but perhaps has new colleagues that are difficult to work with. So what did we ask for... really? Hmm.


The more you look at something out there, the more you miss the point of looking and finding "in here" (corny as heck but there you go). We have the tendency to run away from the "in here" times, including the writer of this post. Why? Because we don't know what we'll find "in here" for sure and whether we'll like it. Isn't it easier to say: there, THAT should fix my nagging feelings. Please let me win lotto and I'll be happy forever.... Uhuh.

The funny thing is that you are already kitted out perfectly.

Let's start here: the letting go of the need to know any outcome will work wonders. Fear will leave you. The controlling urges will subside. You don't need a 100 friends, just a few kick ass ones will be awesome already. How long do you plan to pussy foot about? The distractions you were seeking were just that, some entertainment fluff. Did you really choose it, or was it just to keep you occupied? (I know it sounds meehhh but that's what this post is about.)

The only answer to feeling happy, or happier, is to see that your life, in whatever state that it is, is catering exactly to the need of what you are expecting. As la dee da as it may sound, the less you want, and even less you need, the more satisfied you'll feel. It's the making peace, as well as the seeing all there is and not judging it but appreciating it, that will help greatly in putting a smile back on your face, and a trusting hippety hoppety in your step. Things can only get better. You can always choose differently. Just chill out. 

Life is wondrous. Just expect it to be and go about it accordingly. And for heavens sake have some more fun! All that serious stuff can give you the heebie jeebies. And others too.